He’s here

I fell off the band wagon for a hot moment. I had a whole lot to process. I’ll give some detail.

In 2020 I noticed a lump in my neck. I went to the doctor. The thyroid nodule measured 2.3cm. Just over the 2.2cm mark. (They don’t order biopsies for 2.2 or smaller.)

Many things were pushed off in 2020 and marked as “not essential.” My biopsy was pushed off 3 separate times. I almost gave up, but kept pursuing the request of a biopsy, with the encouragement of some friends and family.

One year later! … after finding a new endocrinologist, ordering a new biopsy and ultrasound, and after being on a 3 month waiting list… I had the biopsy done.

We felt to attend General Conference (a minister’s conference for the UPCI) in faith. That God had something for us there.

Brother Josh Herring preached the last night of the conference. At the last alter call, there was a man who came up to me and prophesied over me. I have no idea who the man was or even what he looked like.

My mail was being read. He was reading mail I didn’t even know I had. (He was exactly on point.)

Then he said, “you see this as a BIG thing. God sees this as a small thing. This is a very small thing to God. Your BIG thing is your calling. Your ministry. Your anointing.”

He prophesied healing from the top of my head to the soles of my feet. He claimed healing. And I recieved it.

I was supposed to hear back from my endocrinologist with the biopsy results. But no phone call came. I thought no news is good news… ? Right?

3 days later, Monday, my arms were full of books, helping my toddler out of his carseat and handing my oldest son books to carry into the library to return. The phone rang. It was the doctor. Trying not spill my coffee I answered.

He asked, “is now a good time to talk?” Walking towards the library to catch up with my kids. I hurriedly said “yes. Now is fine.”

His next words were, “unfortunately, we found cancer.”

I said, “9% chance” … (that’s what he told me the chances were that the nodule would come back cancerous. Nodules are so very common.)

The doctor said, “9% chance.” He went on to say. This type is very rare. 2% of people who have thyroid cancer have this type. Medullary thyroid cancer. He told me No radioactive iodine pill, No chemo, no radiation. Nothing responds to this type. Its just, “watch and wait.”

I never ever had experienced anxiety before.

After hanging up the phone with him. I started breathing like I just ran up 3 flight of stairs. I realized my loud breathing in the silent library and controlled it then.

I called my husband.

My world was shaking.

NOW I knew what the prophetic words that were spoken over me meant.

There have been many other prophesies, dreams, verses, ect… too many to write in this blog post, that told me something was coming. All offered hope.

That’s what I choose to cling to. The hope.

I asked the Lord for direction.

The first surgeon I met with wanted to schedule me for a total thyroidectomy. Dependent on pharmaceutical drugs for the rest of my life. I despised that thought.

I politely asked if there was another option.

She was angry. (Maybe because she was 9 months pregnant… hormones maybe?)

She slammed her fist down on the desk in front of me. She told me my kids would be without a mom within 1 year if I didn’t have the surgery.

Either way. I decided she was not going to be doing any major surgery on my body.

I asked the Lord for direction. I knew he could heal me in one moment.

He forgives all your sin; He heals all your diseases.
Psalms 103:3 HCSB

The next night I had a dream. I was in the surgery room. I’ve never had a surgery before, but everything in the room was very accurate to how the rooms are set up. I was going under anesthesia. I woke up with a feeling of peace.

“Really, you want me to go through this, Lord? Ok. I’ll schedule the surgery.”

My pastor confirmed this decision before I told him about my dream. Thank God for spirit-led leadership!

I had to meet a new surgeon and get on his schedule. More waiting. (Only 30 days because my case was urgent.)

During the waiting I had 3 CT scans, more blood work, genetic testing.

They told me if this cancer was genetic they encouraged me to have my children and all my brothers and sisters tested. If they had the same gene I had in their bodies they wanted to remove their thyroids and put them on prescription medication for life by the age of 9.

The weight of all of this was so heavy.

Good news. The surgeon said the cancer is only in the front of my neck. 3 lymphnodes. It hadn’t spread to lungs, head, liver, or abdomen.

More good news. The genetic testing results showed I was sporadic. Nothing genetic. My surgeon said, I just had “bad luck.”

I know there is no such thing as “luck” good or bad.

Even when living a life devoted to Christ we are never promised the easy way. We dont get until heaven. We are promised that He will be with us.

I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.
John 14:18 KJV

If you are going through a storm. Ask the Lord for guidance. He will give it. And He will give you peace THROUGH it.

The Bible says, His ways and thoughts are higher than ours. Thank God for that!

He is for you. He won’t leave you. HE IS for YOU! He is already there.

I have something better than “watch and wait.”

I’ll be “watching and praying.”

Because he is lovingly devoted to Me, I will deliver him; I will protect him because he knows My name. When he calls out to Me, I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble. I will rescue him and give him honor. I will satisfy him with a long life and show him My salvation.
Psalms 91:14‭-‬16 HCSB

Be encouraged. Find your hope and cling to it.

Open Your Umbrella

Last week I had a vision. I was standing outside as I looked to my right, in the distance, afar off I saw a roaring dark gray thunderstorm. It was rolling towards me. It was alarming.

A couple days later, I listened to a podcast by Art Wilson. (I posted a link below) He talked about how we, as a church, are being pushed into the arena. God is getting ready to show off His church.

Like Jesus being ushered into the wilderness by the Spirit to be tempted by the devil.

More darkness is coming, but do not fear.

I remembered my vision of the raging storm in the horizon.

I asked the Lord. “What should I do when the storm is here? What do You want me to do?”

He replied, “Open your umbrella.”

“Ok, Lord, thanks for the umbrella, yes I will.”

I had another question. “What is my umbrella?”

I thought His answer would be something like Love, or Truth, or His Word, or faith.

He answered, “Me, it’s Me.”

Cling to Jesus. He is our hope in the storm.

Fix your eyes on Him for He is our Anchor.

He is our Protector. He is our strong tower. He is our refuge in times of trouble.

The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer, my God, my mountain where I seek refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
Psalms 18:2

God is preparing us to shine when the world is darkest.

Your life should be free from the love of money. Be satisfied with what you have, for He Himself has said, I will never leave you or forsake you.
Hebrews 13:5

Has the Lord given you encouragement when you were standing in the rain. How was He your umbrella? I’d love to hear from you.

I have a link of the podcast and a song that encourages my heart.